Breezy Days: a situation in which retail therapy is necessary

a situation in which retail therapy is necessary

August 19, 2012
Tomorrow is my first dermatologist appointment in almost a year.
Truthfully, thinking about it scares me.

Granted, I'll have Ryan with me this time. 
The first time I made my way to the cancer specialist in Salt Lake was over a year ago, and I went all by myself.
The whole office kept on asking why I didn't have my boyfriend/fiance with me?

Well, cause hhhheeellllllooooo I'm a big college girl and can do this myself.

I got some moles scraped off for testing, got my WHOLE ENTIRE body checked out {yup, every embarrassing crevice}, then promptly took my little booty over to the mall for some retail therapy.

Even when I was diagnosed with Stage 1B Melanoma, I wasn't afraid.
Mostly because I was naive.

After 12 staples on my right forearm, 9 staples under my arm to stitch up where they took out 3 lymph nodes, not being able to take care of myself for a month or so, losing 10-15 pounds {I wasn't too sad about that part! haha}, and being constantly lethargic are all things I know will happen if I were to be diagnosed again. 

I have to constantly remind myself:
"If it happens again, you are suffering now for the sake of your future family. By getting that ugly cancer out of your body you are ensuring that you will be around for your husband and future kids for years and year to come. You are gonna be around for so long they are gonna get sick of you! ;)" 

Despite psyching myself out, I'm working on being optimistic here!
Good thing I'm gonna get myself some apple pie right now.
And, I have some money saved up specifically for my 'retail therapy' needs tomorrow :) 

<3 Bri

7 comments :

KFord.Squared said...

Oh my heck! Girl you are in my prayers! Hope everything goes well tomorrow. You are so strong! Eat LOTS of apple pie. You are so smart to save for some retail therapy! This is totally the OK time to do so.
Keep us up to date! xoxo

Brooke said...

Scary scary! I had no idea melanoma was part of your life. Thanks for sharing this, and best of luck tomorrow!

Courtney said...

Praying for you!!

Alana Christine said...

Wow, I had no idea. I will be thinking of you! That definitely warrants a new purse or shoes ; )

Chelsea Hickman said...

You are an inspiration to all who know you. I know I've been touched by your thoughts and actions in a very positive way. :) Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers tonight and tomorrow! You're so brave.
:)

Adriana said...

I would have never thought that you ever went through this. You seem like such a brave and positive girl! I hope everything goes well. You deserve to shop as much as you want after your appointment!

-Adriana :)

Teresa @ Delightfully Darling said...

I hope that everything went well at the doctor appointment! Thinking about you and praying for you to have clean test results!! Much love also (but that is a given!)

xo T